So the inevitable happened: my whole department got laid off and then some: Company downsized 50%. I am now officially part of the statistics of the financial crisis and free-fall unemployment rate.
I am not sad or anything… I mean it sucks that I lose that income. No more $300 purses and random shopping spree. I guess because everyone and their cousins are getting laid off or have been affected by the economy some how, I don’t feel as unfortunate or as down as if I had gotten laid off under a different circumstance. I am actually quite… nonchalant about this. My Marketing Director, who had a choice given to her that she could’ve stayed but choose to leave instead. She fought long and hard to keep me there at the company (not that I was a bad employee, but when times are tough, they trim from bottoms up), and at one point she even took a large pay cut so that I didn’t have to get a pay cut and get to stay and work with her. Anyways, so we both go out with a bang, and we just wish everyone else at the company best of luck because without Marketing (events and community connection we have), they will have a 75 degrees angle to climb.
So what now? I am still in the process of applying for graduate school with no chance of getting in anywhere because my GPA was horrific… it’ll take a real miracle for me to get accepted. And if I do get accepted, I am going to go to school, what work place is going to take me? An transient worker for 6 months?
Granted, I do have alternatives I can always go to. For example, the quartet. During summer time, I get quartet gigs up the yingyang, and I make very good cash, on top of that, I can always help my friend Xue do shoots and stuff and maybe get paid for it. I can also go back to doing professional makeup… Worse comes to worse I can start baking cupcakes or some shit. But truth be told, all these options are options, and I’ve been doing them along my then full-time job. But now, I feel like just saying screw it, and go hide in my garage and start painting again.
Who knows what tomorrow might bring, maybe sunshine, maybe rain.